made the long-delayed trip to the doctor’s today. turns out that all the reflux-ing has resulted in swollen vocal chords and tightness around the throat area. and all these months, i thought i hadn’t warmed up my voice properly. i had probably aggravated things somewhat with my ignorance.
so, come tokyo, i will be making the return to my rabbit-food diet. not here, not yet, because there are still too many social obligations to fulfill, and i do not wish to sit through another meal sipping hot tea while the questions come – is that all you’re having?
i suppose i am grateful that i will still be able to sing, only perhaps not as well as i could have. but right now, the thought of having to live with this indefinitely seems rather surreal. a diet of leaves and soup brings cold comfort in winter – i don’t wish to be a self-fulfilling prophet, but am terribly afraid that it will be yet another discouraging and depressing half-year ahead. i wish i could take my own advice and live each day as it comes; i want to enjoy the opportunities i have been given… but the pessimist in me is winning this one. childish as it may sound, i do not want to return to tokyo and be alone again, staring at my measly meals and dingy walls.
i know it doesn’t have to be that way, but god help me – i can’t quite see another way right now.
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Hey dear, would you consider asking your uni for a leave of absence?
About the questions at meals…I SO UNDERSTAND…
Hope to see you later.
You don’t have to live with digestion or acid reflux problems. They can be healed naturally, but you have to take things into your own hands and not relie on acid blockers or other drugs. These will only mask symtoms and lead to long term other problems. I encourage you to do a little research and live a happy healthy life!