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24Aug09

hello, it’s been a while. for me, at least.

i’m home. it’s so good, good, good to be home again. i have to stop my mind from fast-forwarding to the inevitable end of the holidays – back to where laughing boisterously makes you feel like a public nuisance, where there are no tropical breezes to take the edge off the stifling heat, where… where i am, simply, not home… not myself.

but there, i promised myself that i would be an overflowing barrel of sunshine and positivity. self-pity, if felt, should surface only in the dark of the night, under the cover of many layers of blankets. not because i want to be brave, or any such nonsense. just because… well, i suppose things could be worse. that’s a cliche, but, really… things could be worse.

the weather has been lovely since i returned. blazing hot, yet breezy and peppered with the occasional squall. perfect tropical weather. perfectly home. i wake up when the household begins to stir each morning and lie in bed, listening to home sounds. i have my cup of hot milo while watching the morning news. i wonder why the same rituals can feel entirely different simply because you are in a different space and time.

there is much work to be done – that endless paper, all that music to learn, and housework, day after day after day. but all i want to do is sit still and soak it all up. this heat. this sensation of being home.

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