weary
6 hours of singing is no small feat, and there’re still 9 more to clock tomorrow. despite all i had said previously about wanting to sing, and sing, and sing… it doesn’t feel right somehow, this… marathon style of rehearsing.
god, i’m tired.
i met up with a friend after rehearsal today for a long overdue chat and some cocktails, acid reflux be damned. a fellow singaporean who has been in japan as long as i have, she broke the news that she would be returning home next year for good. she is one of the few people in the world, and the only person here in tokyo, who share my interests for fine dining and girly fun like shopping and hair salons, coffee and chewy cookies at tully’s, and english fiction. among other things that we have in common. like college friends. like having followed much the same route of education. like worrying about ageing parents back home. like peers getting married left, right, and center. what will life be like in tokyo without her?
despite having fought negative thoughts and feelings for the past few months (and believing i had triumphed), i feel all at sea, once again. unanchored, frightened, and terribly tired. and wondering if the opportunity cost of getting yet another degree is, after all, too much for me.
allow me a moment of weakness and petulance – i want to go home, too.
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Eye on the prize, babe…eye on the prize…
I am actually seriously considering doing my PhD, especially after the recent conference. I think I am starting to see alot of use for the research I’m doing now.
So keep me inspired k? :)
See you soon!
you go girl! :)
i do enjoy my studies… i guess i didn’t realize i had grown to love being in singapore so much! tokyo really gets to one after a while.
The disquiet of the displaced! :)
Glad you are enjoying your studies, my dear!