the body rebels
but what against? i cannot quite tell.
since yesterday, i have been expelling… things… excessively from my body. i also have a fever, and a head that pounds mercilessly with just about every single movement i make. i am sure i have no bodily fluids left, and at this rate, will have no brain cells left soon either. i cannot imagine boarding a plane 9 days from now and leaving home for 3 years – i do not have a suitcase as of today, my belongings lie in cheerful disarray all around the room, i have no cash to bring with me… what a state i am in. i might laugh if i didn’t feel like throwing up everytime my lips parted.
i am worried that i will not get to sing for a long, long while. i am afraid that i will feel like an incredible loser once i step into class and hear all the clever japanese being slung around the room. i fear that my body will not hold up and i will return before long, sickly and defeated.
i am, right now, at my most petulant. i would stamp my feet if anyone would take notice… but mostly, i just want to lie down and forget life for a while.
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Get well soon, girl! Don’t jump the gun and think about the future when there’s much in the present that will happen FOR YOU! :) Look forward and go!
whew i never had the runs this bad before! and i thought it was just a hangover… right now, i will be thankful enough to board the plane and get there… but thanks for the words of encouragement :D