sniffle saturday

20Sep08

it’s official. i have caught a cold. unless it is one of those morning bugs that will disappear as the day heats up… i am in for some fun. my nose is sore, my head aches, and i want to disappear into a black hole somewhere. not a day for singing, and most certainly not for work.

but what has to be done, has to be done. and do it i will, nose or no nose.

it’s been difficult dealing with the anger recently. i’m a peace-loving animal for the most part, and when it comes to people i love, i am certainly highly forgiving. but this anger is a beast of another color, and it makes me want to destroy, and hurt, and hurl things around. i want to inflict both physical and emotional pain somehow, and being unable to do it is making me feel genuinely frustrated. so… i can do nothing but crawl back into myself and try to fight the beast alone. and what a tough battle it is shaping up to be.

i’m simply relieved that we have no projects coming up for a few months yet. it’s good to know i can go all out and be as sick as my body wants to be; that i can sniffle and cough and wheeze all i want and mope around wretchedly. sometimes, being sick can be a cleansing process. maybe some of the anger will be purged alongside everything else that is currently stuck in my sinuses and throat.

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