mind games
i forgot how rejuvenating a run in the park can be. with the wind and everything else around you flashing past; the steady, reassuring thud, thud, thud of your feet on the ground; the endless blue skies; music in your ears and in your head… i don’t know why it took me so long to get my butt out there, but i must try to remember all these sensations when my will power starts to waver.
what an amazing week. no work, nothing. a little lull. time to catch up on life and all the little things that do not matter. perhaps i shall endeavour to make breakfast again on sunday.
and here, i must stanch the flow of words. or rather, the flow has dried out by itself. i cannot focus on writing because my entire soul and being is attempting to make a decision – should i eat that chocolate bar in the fridge? the internal war goes something like this – yes, because no one else would. no, but you just spent more than thirty minutes running! yes, denying yourself is the surest way to gaining more weight. no, it’s always that ‘one bite’ that does it. yes… no… yes… no… it’s an amazing self-sustaining exercise that goes on and on for the longest time in my mind.
would it make a difference if i ate it tomorrow…? if i’m going to eat it anyway… oh well…
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